18-4-2011 (Monday)

Just like my last post , I still feeling that I don’t want to be senior … “Senior ” sound like very old , although I already being many people senior … Haha , but it also mean that I not a fresh man in USM already … Hehe , I will be dai dai ka jie … But , today I am going to talk about my PE life . It might be long a bit , but really meaningful to me . These are the proof that I had being grow up a lot.

From the start of the 1^st year , I just want to find out Buddhist society since Brother yi ming told me that USM Buddhist society can learn lots of things and yet I find it since I entered USM . But , at last I only found it when is 3^rd week after school start . Yup , it quite late but thank to yi ming , I finally participate the USM Buddhist society which we call PPB in USM . Hehe I meng meng dong dong de jiu become a PE (Penolong Exco) and because of this , I really learn lots of things . (Thank to my beloved two exco 1^st ).

From PPB , I learn that if we want to organize something , we must set an objective 1^st and after that we follow the objective to do the activity . Yup , I haven’t being trained like that before , and sorry to say that the activity I organize before , I feel quite meaningless . Last time , I just do only , I did not care about others feeling , I did not care about others situation , I did not care that whether they can learn something or not . What I did is , boss (pengarah , or camp chief) ask me to do a camp in order to success , then I did so only . Sorry for that , my last partner , I not mature enough and perhaps it did not burden u all .

I know those things but I wonder can I apply it when I back to BBA . I scare that there people sometimes cannot accept and at last I know I will give up to persuade them . ^^ , ya that is my behavior . I hope that I can change it through this ad hoc project (MO). It really a good chance for me to grow even faster , although quite impossible for me to handle this post well . When I agree to handle this post , I had a feel , the feeling is just like when cc ask me to be program member . That is what I haven’t try before and yet I sure that I will be grow up since I have to stand lots of stress . And I hope that I wouldn’t give up so easily just like what I did last time . This time is different , there are lots of friend to help me when I suffer . UNDER A DHAMMA ROOF , WE SHARE AND CARE . That is the slogan of PPB , and now all of us , PE apply it very well . Even some of us did not become exco , we still stick together and share the happiness and sadness with each other .

I still remember that when I participate the aktiviti kebajikan for the first time , got a senior called derrick ask all PE the reason we joined PE . That time, I answered that I want to learn something and yet he laugh at me. Hehe, it quite a serious and abnormal answer but it really come from my deep heart. And yet, at last I really learn lots of thing and derrick look like also found that I had change. ^^ , from lazy to learn Buddhism to become interest to know more. Although sometimes I will skip class , but at last I will not feel that dharma class is boring leh … ^^ , it is a change because I always sleep at class but when attend to dharma class I did not sleep at all (sometimes will take note). I not sure that whether my attitude got change or not , but I try my best to apply what I have learn in the real world . ^^ … I think today write till here 1^st lah . next time share again . I go study lo … bye bye

going to end my 1st year life

time pass so fast .. my 1st year life going to end soon .. i going to be ppl's senior ade ... arghh , y leh ... i dun like to be others senior , i want always young .. but i know , those things wun happen de .. ^^ , dun saja write only ...

recently , be naib pengarah of mo (minggu orientasi ) . i noe i cnt do it well , but i being forced to handle this post , coz they like to give chance for us to learn . i try my best to make sure my mission going well . But , there are nothing perfect , i found that i sometimes really feel very stress ... they want me think everything . Yup , is a very good chance to learn , but i need to grow up within two weeks ... really stress , i dun like that feeling . it seem like last year teenagers camp ,. Yup , cnt deny that i really grow up much , but i really dun like that feeling . WILL STRESS TILL ME KI SIAO . And at last , found that i learn skill only , how to manage my time , how to do a camp , bt not to manage my feeling ... I noe i have to find someone to console me , but sometimes really hard to find that person . The exco find me to slove the problem , but I ONLY FIRST YEAR STUDENT. I noe when i talk like that , they will feel that i not responsible enough ... that y , i keep silent , i waiting myself to ki siao ..

and yet , i go find pengarah to talk such things when i can manage my feeling well . Yup , i am that kind of person , i dun like to make others worry about me . Sometimes , i feel like want to give up, when they ask me want to handle this post or not , i ade noe , i cnt accept , i have the responsibility to do it well . yup , minggu orientasi is a big project , i dun1 to spoil it ... But , now . I pick up this post , whatever situation i have to face it .

^^ , exam is coming , but i still have the feel to writing these and those ... look like i really have much stress on this post ...

Anyway , gambateh !!!

p/s : next time write about my pe life